natural trouble finder?

sometimes i think i get myself into troubles more than i get myself some sanity!

this time, its real blurness..

well, here's the scenario.. i have work to do and my other team members have a huge problem for the project. well, the problem really (and really) does not concern me cuz i'm really not related to the problem. but as a 'team member' (so to speak) wanted to stay back with my team members with the mentality of 'being part of the team'. so, i thought that my team members would leave office at the latest at 8pm cuz i need a lift to church for an event. but as the time went by.. it went to 9pm, 10pm.. and now 12am. i missed out the event in church.

on the other side, i've been encouraging my friends to go for the event in church and i had some responsibility to do for that event. i was all eager to go there and really wanted to go there after work since i've had a long week at work lately. but.. i missed it. and obviously my friends were dissapointed, or at least a small hinch of anger, of my absence in church. some of my colleagues knows that i was going to church and yep.. still in office with them here.

now the question is.. did i do what i did right?

there a thousand and one things that i could have done. but what i dont quite understand about myself is why did i stay here in office and i should be in church? or why am i staying here when the problem really doesnt concern me when i should be in doing what i was assigned to do in church? my colleague was just telling me.. 'if i were you, i would have just left early'. yeah, i could have done that, but my thoughts was, 'hey! we're part of a team, would you leave the team here all stressed out when you are out having fun??' of cuz i didnt say that.. i kept silent. then they kept asking me.. 'what are you doing here? you should be in church'.. well, that got me thinking.. 'why am i staying here again?'

my another friend was pretty shocked to see me online. i was telling him about my situation and well, we came to a conclusion. i'm very blurred and torn between 2 responsibility. where i am unable to make my decision to why i react the way i reacted. well, i have 2 obvious responsibility at this point of time: 1) a worker and a team player. 2) a church member. which one should i give more priority? as a worker, i bet God would want us to perform our best at work but as a church member, God would want us to learn from Him. well, of cuz point 2 sounds more logical and rasional for a christian but what happens when you are really required to work then? are you disobeying God? its like when i was once asked to work on one saturday and sunday which forced me to missed church that weekend. i was so furious cuz i had to miss church, but would it be rasional for me to be all determine and insist to my boss that i must not work on sundays? cuz when i did work that one sunday, and missed church, i still managed to feel God's presence at work (cuz i prayed that morning in office for a sound mind) and i realised that my boss too had to give up more sacrifices that no one knew about.
but anywayz, the question is still.. did i do what i did right? by putting my work first instead of church activities? another blur dilemma..