i'm caught

i am at starbucks now.. with my freaking notebook.. doing work, reading blogs, replying emails. what happened to just enjoy my coffee, timeOut, read a physical book?!

must be the revelation i had that i could online there.

argh! what happened!?

[ here's the story ]

i'm at this starbucks after work to get my mails cuz i was in the client's place the whole day. and i need to get some stuff settled before the next day. then as usual, got my coffee, on-ed my notebook and started doing my work. everyone around me also got their notebook on - for work, for discussion, for presentation, for surfing.

one adult came to starbucks - with his coffee and donut. looked around for a place to sit. twitched his mouth cuz there werent any clean table. then he found one. in the midst of all the other table that has notebook on it. i was one of them. he looked around. took a bite of his donut. looked around again as though he was lost in the techie world. finished his food, drank his drink. looked around again - thinking, whats happening. sip again, and another sip. looked around really lost in the crowd. then walked away.

got me to think. am i like the rest or am i like him. do i want to be like the rest or like him. enjoy the time without technology.

i used to wonder how can someone enjoy starbucks and notebook. what a contrary. until i started myself. on the notebook. talking to ppl virtually and not physically. doing my own stuff.

what has become of me..!?

i'm losing my mind.. soon

song in head : wake me up when september ends - greenday

the little things

sometimes, its just the little things..

the smell of freshly baked pastries
the smell of coffee in the morning
email from awaiting person arrives
a short sweet suprise message
an old person in mcd having breakfast
elderly couple holding hands - interlocked
a funny remark in the middle of work
small suprises

that makes you smile. and makes your day.

oh.. another..

just a smile - does the trick too ;o)


song in head : overjoyed - jennifer hudson

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the toy

little tim saw on the tv a rider on a bike. he said thats they best thing and he wanted a rider on a bike toy. then one day, his mom brought him to the mall and there, at the far end, little tim got attracted one corner. he quickly ran to the corner and he saw what he wanted - a rider on a bike plastic toy. thats the exact one that i want to have, thought little tim. he wanted it so badly, he asked his mom hoping that she would buy it for him. it was a few dollars, so she agreed to get it.

on christmas morning, like how every little children in the world would rush down to the christmas tree to find their presents, little tim rushed as fast as he could to be the first to open. he found his present and he opened it. it was the exact rider on the bike plastic toy that little tim wanted from the mall he saw the other day. he was jumping up and down, smiling from ear to ear, playing with it as though it was really racing around the house. that was the best present that he has gotten that year.

his older brother, john, went towards him, grabbed the toy from him. looking, inspecting and shaking little tim's precious toy. he pushed the toy back to little tim saying, 'silly you', with a dissapointed tone. 'mom wanted to get you a bigger and better rider toy. but since you insisted that you wanted this silly plastic toy, you've missed out the better one.'

[ story told by my mum.. to ponder. ]

"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters.." psalms 23

whats next?

ever had the feeling that you want to do something but at the same time, donno what to do, how to do but just want to do something?

ever wonder how you can show your mood over just chatting online?

c : how come u like no mood wan?
f : how you know?
c : donno wor.. u sad kah?
f : eh, got alot of work to do, donno which one to do lor.. what you think?
c : i thought u sad... because... u r put into a situation that u don't want... which no one to help or guide... everyone not caring for each other... don't know what happening... no direction... don;t know what to do... want to go but cannot...
c : ada betul ah !!

either my friend knows me really well or it really obvious that i am confused. but anyways, yes.. i am in that position.

sometimes i want to know whats happening, what to anticipate. sometimes i like suprises.

sometimes i think i confuse myself more than i confuse others.

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. " Phil 4:6


update : it wasnt that 'time of the month'.. hahaha.. a friend just asked me. and before everyone else does., i tot i'll say it first. :o)


song in head : september - earth, wind & fire

first..

yes, finally i have some time off [ literally ] to do some updates. there are alot of other stuffs that i want to say.. but hmm.. how should i start..

randomly la..

some of the many few [ oxymoron ] pictures that i took at my first overseas mission trip. some details:

venue : andaman seas, border of thailand and myanmar
people : 17 ppl - mixture of young adults and adults
duration : 1 week

ask anyone of us and we've all got our own stories to share. each and everyone of us have a different experience and encounter. let me tell mine.

we prepared ourselves a few weeks [ or is it months ] in advanced, but somehow, i still felt very unprepared for the whole trip. angela and myself had to be in-charge of the children/youth program - which was a challenge to me. well, although i am in the children ministry in church, i'm still clueless with children - especially of different culture, language. they is no speaking england. they speaking moken. we planned from the songs, to the visual aids, to the games. but still, i felt unprepared.

the day that we flew to ranong, and to stay at koh payam, i was nervous. seriously. and not knowing what to do. i just dont know what to do. i stared blankly as we were heading towards the island. where the people were. and when we reached the island, thats when the show begins.

i admit. i do not know how to approach people. i'm more reserved to myself. shy, in other words or introvert. [ somehow, i reckon, there're some of you that are saying 'yea, right!'. believe it! ] the whole day at koh payam, i didnt know what to do. kids were slowly coming out and looking at us curiously. all i did was.. smile.

then some of us walking around the place. talk to some locals. there are some that spoke malay and we found one guy that spoke really good english. still, i didnt know what to do. there were some of the guys that started playing captain ball. despite the language barrier, the moken guys could understand the rules and they played well..! really well..! and the score were really close to each other too.

one of us took out some balloons and we started creating shaped for the balloons. the kids saw and that got them attracted. but it was them that came to us, first. and thats was our first contact.

after the next day, the people recognized us. and the kids came to us. we started to sing some simple thai songs, couple of english songs with actions, and played some games. you can tell when the kids are comfortable with you - they get cheeky. they start playing tricks on you and being very mischevious too. also, they start to sit next to you more and got closer with you. thats when i knew, the barrier is broken.

but too late. we had to go on to the next island. i seriously missed those kids at koh payam. but it was a short visit there. we went to koh rhao. and it was again, the kids that came to us first before we went towards them.

anyway, to cut it short, it was really God that planned the whole itinarary. we may have planned a lot of things, but it was still God's show. all He needed was people that wants to be part of it. it was awesome.

i dont want a temporary encounter and thats it. i want to be able to have a continual encounter as such. but then again, i hate not knowing whats happening. ironic, aye?

well, dont we all?

song in head : ironic - alanis morissette