blurred about life"s simple complexities

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

just that feeling..

of christmas again..

christmas songs are being played in some departmental stores, christmas decorations are slowly taking over the recent raya & deepavali's, and everyone's talking about their christmas plans.

well, maybe to me only.. hehehe

for some reason, i'm excited about december. i've got some plans with my friends and my family, and at the same time, work has some plan for me too.. sigh. but anywayz, cant wait till christmas. with all the christmas music in all the stores and in radios. all the christmas decorations filling every corner. christmas presents everywhere, with nice cooling (or raining) weather usually at the end of the year.. ahh~

was just talking to my friends, only thing missing is snow. hehe.. but i guess i would just settle with the cooling weather outside.. and with christmas jazz songs..

mixed with my work now. hehehee

Monday, November 14, 2005

i've got tagged

felix tagged me to answer these questions.. hmmm...

7 things that scare me
- scarry movies (exorcism, ring.. whatever)
- sea urchen (if i'm snorkelling)
- bugs that flies (have you seen a flying crocoach.!?)
- taking chemistry or biology exams
- loosing important documents when travelling
- getting into a big car accident.. altho a minor one is good enough to scare me
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(quite alot-lah.. shy.. hahaha)

7 random facts about me
- just bought a RM120 cap
- newly sudoku addict
- regular coffee drinker
- not a tea drinker except teh tarik (cuz plain tea all pretty much taste the same)
- eyeing on a new notebook
- have not done my christmas shopping yet
- tonnes of half read books lying in my room

7 things I hope to do before I die
- go for a europe tour
- backpack
- bungee jump
- travel to at least each country in each continents
- write a something thats impactful
- own my own house and car
- be an impact to at least someone

7 things I can do
- eat
- sleep
- type
- play off key guitar (God knows what unspeakable note)
- walk
- run
- jog
(duhh..)

7 people who should fill this out
- Jelly
- Wai Nyan
- Minh Lee
- Wan Phing
- Willie
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(sorry guys, but you guys are the only people i know in this blog-line.. hahahhaa)

Friday, November 11, 2005

letting it go

as children bring their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
i brought my broken dreams to God
because He was my friend.

but instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
i hung around and tried to help
with ways that were my own.

at last i snatched them back and cried,
'how can you be so slow?'
'my child,' He said, 'what can I do?
you never let them go.'

(taken from a bookmark, 'broken dreams')

many times we say we lay it all down for God to deal with it, to let Him take control of things.. but somehow, there's always a string attached to it. we tend to 'hung around and try to help'..

well,

cut the string and let it go! hahaa.. i'm learning to do that too.. ;o)

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

those were the days..

i am now officially 23 and yes, i am getting older. but i still miss birthday parties..

just celebrated.. or, rather, enjoyed my birthday last week in a very simple manner. aside from the upcoming deepavali & hari raya holidays the next day, most of my friends went back home or somewhere. i stayed in KL insetad of going back home cuz there wasnt anyone at home (my parents were on holiday). so, then i thought, might as well celebrate it with my friends who were around.. or at least i think they were around. so, here's what happened on my birthday..

well, on the eve actually.

my housemate asked me if she could date me for either lunch or dinner depending on when i am available. then i told her, i'm available for her the whole day cuz no one dated me yet for the day.. sounds pathetic? hahahaha nahh.. anywayz, on the struck of midnight, received birthday call and birthday smses (and i am very very grateful for all the wishes! thank u thank u!). then.. i slept. well, had to get up the next day for service.. hahahaha

once in church, some wished me and smiled alot.. hahahaha.. well, aside from some ppl announcing my birthday, sunday service went by like a typical sunday service. then it was straight to 1-Utama. a friend dropped me there and said that was his birthday gift for me.. a free ride to 1-Utama.. hahahaa.. was really grateful for that ride cuz i would have to take a cab and it was quite a jam that day. anywayz, my housemate treated me Chili's and whoa.. i really stuffed myself to the max there! and not eaten so much tostada chips and tortilas.. hahaha. but it was cool. my dad called me too and said i was bullying my hsemate cuz she was only a student treating me who is working. he said i should be the one paying. and when i wanted to pay, my hsemate scolded me! hmm.. being scolded more than normal days! oh well... talked alot with my hsemate (not like we dont at home) and just walked around 1-Utama after that.. to digest the food we ate.. hahaa.. then it was just a nice quite rest at home.

well, it may sound a little simple (or pathetic) on how i spend my birthday but seriously, it was good.. well, as compared to last year.. i spend the whole day alone last year..! hahahaha.. pretty sad but yeah, this year was much better. but... (there's always a 'but' in everything) i still miss having a birthday party like when i was a kid.. hahahaha...

but reflecting on my 2 birthday experiences.. i actually experience alot of things. things that i dont get to experience it everyday. its just between me and my Dad.. the Dad with the big D. He was with me the whole day and just wanting me to reflect on my pass years i had with Him. i guess He just had to stop all of the rest so that i can finally get back to Him, huh.. hehe.. but it was seriously really good. reflecting on the past 23 years of my *ahem* mischievousness (haha) and how He never stop loving me. somehow i think, birthdays are the best time to just reflect on the years, months and days that you spend with your Dad.

a little time off,
a day off,
just spending time with Dad
before the day is off.
birthdays are special,
birthdays are memorable,
birthdays are given
by God our Father, how remarkable.
as another goes by,
another number added to our age,
but i still think,
another way how our Dad,
has loved us to this age.

(hehehe....)