i *heart* books

well, i've never quite been a bookworm kinda person.

okie, i'll rephrase that..

i never liked books.

ironically, i love hanging out in borders. mainly cause starbucks is there. and the feeling of being able to take some books (though you know you wont be buying them) and getting your coffee and read there.. ada gaya wei. hahaha.

but at the 'best selling' area or the '3 for the price of 2' area, the books there are actually pretty interesting. so, i thought, might as well try to read the 'so-called' famous books that others have talked about.

so, my first book that i've actually finished reading from cover to cover was 'da vinci code'. the only motivation for me to read that book was because the movie was coming out. and since there've been heaps of discussion and forum about it, i'd thought i'll read it and judge it for myself just before the movie came out. and its true.. the book is waaaay much better than the movie. by the way.. it took me 6 months to actually finish reading that book..! my mum took 1 week. so, i still couldnt understand how reading a book can be so 'exciting'.

then, my 2nd attempt to read a book. 2nd attempt to try to look 'smart'.

if you guys are trying to be in the same attempt as me - try reading this book: Tuesdays With Morrie - Mitch Albom. really a good book. i *heart* it alot!


a memoir of his favorite college professor, Morrie Schwartz, compiled from Albom's meetings with Morrie on Tuesdays during his fight with amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS, also known as Lou Gehrig's disease).

altho, his writing has alot to do with flashbacks and imaginery. and if you can cry at some part of the story.. fantastic la. some lesson to learn about life.

so, i've continued reading his books and most of them are about - someone dying, someone died, someone committed suicide... *smilez*

other books i've read - shame (jasvinder sanghera), ugly (constance briscoe)
no, i'm not in a morbid mode. its actually pretty interesting books..

anyone got any other books to recommend..?


"Once you learn how to die, you learn how to live."
- tuesdays with morrie


song in head: here in my home - various artiste

i *heart* ..

just thought of *trying* to have a series of things for me to blog about.

so..

bare with me while i try to have this series of topic.. hahahaha..!!

:)

song in head: find 100 ways - james ingram

i want a kaki..!!!

cant believe i'm saying this but...

i want to play tennis..!!

sigh..

i really want to play tennis..!!!

anyone wants to play with me..? i'll promise i wont complaint.. hehehe.. i just want to whack some strokes..

too much badminton is bad for me... *tsk tsk*

quick.. any takers..?? :D

all it takes is a muffin

location: starbucks

they both had the best seats in the place. its a weekday and a new mall, so you wouldnt quite expect as any people coming in to this place. there are a few other regular drinkers in the place. just like the rest, they ignored the people around them. they had all the time and space to themselves. they're in a world of their own.

a world just the two of them.

he had his notebook opened. she had her books laid out on the coffee table. and a hot drink between them. its always nicer to share with your loved ones, somehow it taste nicer. like every couple, they we in love. really in love. i assume so cuz for one, he couldnt keep his eyes from her and the way he touches her. she was trying, really trying, to concentrate on her studies but hands are interlocked with his. he's staring straight to her beautiful face while she's trying look straight to her books and controlling from smiling.

they are really in love.

whilst trying to concentrate at her work, they whisper to each other, trying to keep the conversation very private and confidential.

they are anyhow in a world of themselves.

he must have said something. she must have heard it otherwise.
he must have really meant what he said but she took it as a joke.
he got really upset, she wasnt taking it serious.
he sulked, she was laughing.
he sulked, she kept quiet.
she knew something went wrong.
now both of them arent talking to each other. their face were looking straight to space.

no more smiles.

cold silent treatment is agonizing.

even though in the midst of their silence, they were still looking at each other. Only this time they're stealing looks from the corner of their eyes. she wanted to talk to him but retreats back to silence. he was looking at what she was doing but still, didnt want to talk. he sat opposite from her and read the papers. she saw the empty seat thats now beside her and his eyes were glued to the papers. he closes his notebook, packs his cables and notes. she looked at everything he was doing but didnt want to do anything to stop him. i'm sure she wanted to but somehow, didnt want to give in. and somehow, i'm sure he wished she did that too.

silence and coldness was in the air.

'hi miss, would you like to try our new blueberry muffin. please let us know what you think about it. thank you!' the barister gives a sample to her and to him. they looked at the barister and as soon as she leaves, they looked at each other. they ate it and looked at each other. he talked first. they were both prolly talking a one-liner to each other. couldnt tell what they were talking but he was still packing his stuffs. she gives up and packs her stuffs too and his face were stunned to what she was doing. they both had their things packed.

they were ready to go in anger.

the old lady from the next table were ready to take their cushion seats but they werent leaving yet. he talked to her more and hold her hands from going. they were getting closer to each other. he hugged her and held hands. the affection for each other were just to great to be contained. he sat down again with his things and she walked away. poor lady had to get back sitting on the hard chair cuz she knew they werent going yet.

she came back with the blueberry muffin.

**coffeexified**

sometimes, its really nice to just observed the people around you.

sometimes, you've gotta realised you're being observed.

sometimes, i've just gotta learn to give it a chance.

sometimes, its amazing what blueberry muffin can do.

=)

song in head: rome wasn't built in a day - morcheeba

finally..!!

sharks..

what was i going to blog about?

*thinking*

song in head: september - earth, wind and fire

my first time

i guess its true that there's a first time to something.

first time the opposition won quite a big share in recent election.
first time many other countries having their elections.
first time America have a different look of the candidates running for presidential.

but for me..

my first time attending a chinese morning session wedding (fetch the bride).
my first time witnessing the whole ceremony.
my first time being the driver for the married couple.
my first time photo-sitting James' camera overnight.
my first time taking wedding photos.

i like it.

despite the election news, hoo-haas thats happening, the wedding made it far more interesting and joyful. it is afterall a happy occasion.

anyway, here are some of my photos that i took of my first time.

ps.. btw.. still not my first time voting yet.. hehe

another one goes

keong hee!

[ picture taken: gunung jerai, kedah ]

Keong Hee Huat Chye..!

i just love saying that in hokkien instead. for some reason, its easier to pronounce or sound more.. chinesee.

anyway, chinese new year has always been a big festival here in my little town. to the extend where the malls are actually closed for a day at least. smaller shops closes for longer days.

although, like every other year, there's..

1. traffic jam going back to hometowns
2. cars from every big city appears in the smaller town
3. traffic jam in the small town
4. traffic jam going back to the city

*sigh* isnt festive season the greatest after all.. :D

there's also the gathering of the family from almost everywhere. its kinda like once a year gathering and its also like the only way the younger generations meet with the other younger generation with hope that we'll continue to tradition of meeting each other - at least to my case.

and as always, since it happened two years ago, it is still happening.. this time a bit more.
"nahh.. this year i give you ang pow, next year you better give me back liao ar.." says an aunt whose kid is married with 1 kid already.

i think i'm "enjoying" my new year more each year..


oh well.. KEONG HEE HUAT CHYE!

i guess it is about time..

for some updates.. :)







how's your year been.. or rather, how's your 41 days of 2008 been?


i think i should really get photoshop soon.. but at the mean time.. allow me to show off some pics from my SonyEricsson's camera phone.. hahaha

i had to use it cuz my camera ran out of battery..

song in head: always on your side - sheryl crow & sting

the end is coming..

.. for the new beginning to begin.

song in head: next year, baby - jamie cullum

Next year, things are gonna change
Gonna drink less beer, and start all over again
Gonna read more books, gonna keep up with the news
Gonna learn how to cook, spend less money on shoes
I’ll pay my bills on time,and file my mail away, everyday
Only drink the finest wine,and call my Gran every Sunday

Resolutions, baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things? The answers probably no
If there’s one thing I must do, despite my greatest fears
I’m gonna say to you, I felt all of these years
Next Year
Next Year

I’m gonna tell you how I feel
I‘m gonna tell you how I feel

Resolutions, baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things? The answers probably no
If there’s one thing I must do, despite my greatest fears
I’m gonna say to you, I felt all of these years
Next Year
Next Year

sigh.. has it really been that long ago? lets hope that next year would be a good year :)

shh..

i just watched 'enchanted' in the cinema with some friends, and i must say, its a nice show. its been awhile since i last watched a disney movie and like most disney movie, it normally leaves the girl wishing upon a star and all in the fantasy mood.

well, maybe just me. :) but really, its a nice show.

there is one part in the show when Pip, the chipmunk suddenly realized that he cant talk. and he had to converse in chipmunk language. and had to mime out in order to get the message across. then in the end, he wrote a book 'when silence is not golden' - or something like that.

when do we keep silent?
when do we speak out?

yes, i know there is a time for everything under the sun. and to be wise to know when to say when you need too.

but there are so much time that i wish that i could just speak my mind out. to just speak what i really have in mind. to speak out what i feel and my think and what i want to know. to really know what others think.

then again, the question that stops me would be, 'it is worth speaking it out?' 'is it beneficial?'

one time there were two friends that were really close to each other. the time that they spend with each other was more than just having fun. they hang out so much that they were comfortable with each other. like most other friends, they started sharing with each other their problems, their thoughts and their opinion. and like most close friends, they would only speak to each other their thoughts that most other friends would not know about. it was more than in-depth conversation.

one day, when one of the friend was sent away to another town, the friendship between these two friends began to fade. they met new friends, they met new interest in life. they lived separate lives. when they met again after awhile, there was the awkwardness between each other. they tried to talk again like how it used to be, but it only stayed surfacial.

both had lived a separate lives. but both knew each other's thoughts. both knew what they used to say to each other. about each other. the promises they made towards each other that never achieved.

the price is paid when too much is said, i guess. you're already like in a fear factor show by speaking out your thoughts or your feeling to someone. its a risk. well, its the faith and trust that you have towards someone that only you are willing to pour out everything or some secret. right?

what about the silent treatment?

i know that girls are usually known for using that weapon next to the crying. hahaha.. proud to be one! just kidding.. :) guys are learning that trick too. anyways, what about not speaking it out. not saying it out what you have in mind. not saying out what you want to say. the risk is there too. either you end up eating yourself up or eating someone else because of silence.

so, it is 'speak now or forever hold your peace' or 'silence is golden'?


'a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak' ~ king solomon, ecc 3:7



song in head: big girls dont cry - fergie

it wasnt me

yes yes.. its been a very long time since i updated anything here. but seriously, its not my fault..

not my fault that i have quite alot of things to learn at work

not my fault that i have not much energy after work to go online

not my fault that i see this everyday when i can go online..

hehehe.. i have been blocked by super alot of websites at my client's place... cuz i'm suppose to be.. well, working.

anyway, if many that do not know.. i have changed job after 3 1/2 yrs there. i miss the people the environment. but, i guess i just have to move on. i still miss them.

but, in the new place - its been good. and crazy! well, i'm suppose to be at client site most of the time, so i hardly meet the rest of the colleagues. but we've heard abt each other. but still, my seniors that i meet everyday at work - they're crazily amazing. :)

since i have been blocked by SOOOOO many websites lately, when i can finally go online.. here's what i found out:

1. too many unread blogs

2. dont remember my password to friendster

3. dont recall all the new faces in my 'friends' list

4. found out most of them got married! [ whatever happened to 'hi, here's my bf/gf' ]

5. dont remember how to move around friendster

6. dont remmeber how to see MY own profile

7. everyone's on facebook pulak

8. everyone's asking me to join facebook in ALL my email accounts

9. what IS facebook..!?

10. forget to check out those unread blogs by then

sigh.. too many things at one time.. stress, man. hahaha..

yes, i havent join facebook.. YET

have some patience, ya *wink*

song in head: call me irresponsible - michael buble

a quarter

yes.. finally reached a quarter..

still feeling good and happy.. and the same.



darn casino guards.. still want to check my IC .. (-_-)



song in head: i choose - india arie

ehwoo!

[ a picture i took in pekan, kuantan using jon's camera. one of native kids there. ]

i donno about you but i'm loving this picture alot! makes me want to have the same expression as the kid.. maybe minus the snort-fluid.. hehe

anyway, october is here! soon will be november then 'jingle bells, jingle bells.. jingle all the way' ahh~ i'm loving it

:)

song in head : aku cinta padamu - sheila majid

* dum dee dum dumm.. *

too many times i have tried to update the blog, tell of my thoughts.
too many times i get caught up with other things.. events.. people.
too many times i neglect some stuffs thats closest to me
until its too late.

i'm trying

yes..i'm still alive and very much well. a few events had happend. some good and some bad. anyhow, i'm thanking God for what has happend. it is kinda amazing how sometimes simple events - that sometimes doesnt interest others - means the most to us. it is afterall a personal encounter.

no worries, i'm not trying to sound too deep - altho, my dahling housemate always think i am. maybe its my superpower.. fuh~ too much of Heroes. hehe..

i did have a few things in my mind that i have been wanting to tell it out but so far, with the time that i have, i will try. lets just hope it's soon.

at the mean time, i'd like to hear from you. tell me what has happened since you last visited here. its been awhile, dont you think? :)

coffee?

drum rolls, please

i know nothing about drums or any musical instruments but hey, at least i know how to enjoy music.

in conjunction with our country's 50th year of independence, almost every event thats happening has "50" in it.

drummerforchrist will be having a big thing going on. they'll be playing the drums for 50 hours - non stop! and not just one of them.. a few..! talk about being loud.. starting on the 31st August at Sungai Wang.

if you play drums - go join in..!! it'll be great. they're attempt is to put a name in the Malaysians Book of Records..! imagine.. you're part of that big event. dont wait till malaysia is celebrating its 100th year instead. haha..

i'm not sure if a specific theme is required or you can just simply whack but just go for it!

like i said, i dont play any musical instruments at all, but i'll drop by. a few peeps would be playing too.. Altered Frequence, 1am, Unbashed.. John Thomas, Arthur Kam.. [ ok, i admit.. i only know 3 of the names mentioned ]

so.. ready for the drum rolls? ;o)

my wish list

suddenly.. i just thought of listing it again so, i thought of adding to the list.

probably i'm just bored, or i'm extremely broke. but why is it that when you're broke is when you want alot of things as well. well, at least its motivating me a bit. hahaha..

in random order, i want..

1. canon 350d
2. 120Gb notebook
3. cd player for my car
4. ipod nano - cant believe now i feel like wanting it when i used to say this is an anti-sosial device.
5. trench coat
6. maybe a new cupboard
7. a getaway and do absolutely nothing
8. a nice chat over coffee with friends
9. play tennis again
10. have my 3rd piercing
11. go to rain forrest festival
12. scuba dive in labuan - or somewhere there

again.. whether i achieve it this time or not is another issue. for now, i'll just need to make sure i have the cash for it and complete my work before seeing my client later! sigh..

oh.. an interesting combination - jazz meets vocal

song in head: everything - michael buble

hmm..

Useless fact of the day:

50,000 of the cells in your body will die and be replaced with new cells all while you have been reading this sentence‎.


[ updates later.. too sleepy to post something longer ]

a sympathy?

disclaimer : what is posted below is purely my thoughts and my assumptions.

i'm not too sure if he needs to be sympatized or not. but then again, story has it that he was a betrayer, a back-stabber, the one doomed to be destroyed. he was also the one that needs to carry out the 'duty' in order the prophecy may be fulfill.

he is judas iscariot.

i had the discussion the other day with some of my girlfriends while discussing about this portion. he was a tax-collector. he loves money. he brought the pharisees to Jesus and thus, Jesus was caught, cruxified, etc. judas on the other had, got the money that he wanted - 30 silver coins.

so, up to that part, we know that he was the bad guy.

but if we read in Matthew 27, we read that he said 'i have sinned for i have betrayed innocent blood.' and he hangs himself. in the movie 'the passion', they potrayed judas being disturbed by all the little devils and all. well, who wouldnt be in sound mind after realizing that he just betrayed the Son of God.

my conclusion about judas was, what he did is probably no different from what peter did. peter denied Jesus 3 times. [ matthew 10: 32-33 "Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven. ] but what made peter one of the great apostles after that was, he repented before God after he realized it. judas continued in his wallow-pity-party.

so, that was my conclusion - God is a God of second chances. and that if we repent of our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive them.

but now.. my second thoughts is this verse. "While I was with them, I protected them and kept them safe by that name you gave me. None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that Scripture would be fulfilled." [ John 17: 12 ]

kinda like.. Jesus knew that judas is going to destruction (ie Hell) even before judas met Him. meaning, he is seriously, bound to destruction.

well, i'm sure there's a reason why he chose judas to be his disciple. i mean, his 12 disciple out of the many thousand people that Jesus could have chose. why did Jesus picked him and yet knew that he is going to be destructed.

at first i though that maybe, Jesus picked him cuz He knew that judas was weak - as in his temptation to money. so, probably Jesus picked him, trained and guided him be stronger when tempted. but.. 'except the one doomed to destruction'.

ultimately.. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

[ coffeexified ]

why is it that sometimes we want to do what is wrong when we already know its wrong..? or is it just me..?

unintentional

unintentionally i took 1 whole month off from blogging. now i have 1 missing month in my archive. sigh

seriously unintentional.

[ coffeexified ]

i just thought i'd put up a pic.. something i saw from somewhere, decided to try out myself, learn photoshop [ thank you!! ] and voila.. what do you think? :D

what has happend to me.. well..

1. still cyber-coffeexified at starbucks.
but this time is really for work. sadness. i can be at starbucks really doing work. either that, or i have really lost my focus on what i'm suppose to do. it that time of the season when you've got something to do and more keeps coming. i've already got alot of overdue work and still in the midst of working on them. is time ever enough? of cuz not, thats what i'll say but i'll just submit to time.

2. change of style. still in the process.
no specific reason why i changed style. i just wanted to try something i've been wanting to try for the longest time - short hair. out of it, i've gotten some pretty funny responses:

you look younger! - thats what they tell me when i had longer hair.
you look more lady-like la.. - shorter hair, more lady-like, longer hair, more *what*..?!?
you look fresher.. - i must have been a walking corpse before this.
you just broke-up kah? - this was the ultimate. my friend asked me that cuz she said usually when someone cut her hair short is cuz she just broke up. the only break-up i had was with bank account - temporarily only *grin*

3. the big bang.
yes, my poor blue baby had an accident. shall not get into the mood of arguing whose fault but yes, i knock the person. i had to pay the bigger damage while the uncle's car only had a broken light. well, my poor blue baby had to be in the 'hospital' for a couple of days. i was immobile for awhile and i have forgotten how it feels like to take the train during peak hours. and the wonders of ppl i see on the train. anyway, the big bang kinda blew up all the other worries i have been having the past few days. all the work load, worries of other stuffs. so, the bang made me just chill off again.

4. relief.
in a few months, i'll tell you my big relief. but anyway, ever since i chilled out from my big bang, i manage to re-align myself abit more. think a bit more sensible. made a few friends with the mechanics, too. hahaha. but yea, one load off me. praise God for that.

5. off again!
if i dont blog for the next few days or weeks is cuz i'm still tied up at work.. before i go off to Bangkok for a few days holiday! ahhaha.. when i'm back, its crazy workload again. hopefully i can upload some pics.

[ coffeexified ]

i just met a self-claimed player. not too sure how to respond.

song in head : sweet escape - gwen stefani feat akon