blurred about life"s simple complexities

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

blur off days - kk pt 1




i went east..
i have climbed..
i have swam..
i have rafted..
i had muscle cramps..
i had minor altitude sickness
i had mossie bites that still lasts..
i have sun burn and now peeling..
oh heck, i had a GREAT time..! ;o)

too much to say now.. let me get my mind nicely organized [ while i do the same for my overdue work ], then i'll tell what i went thru in the east.. *grinning*

song in head : private party - india arie

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

gulp!

i have no idea what have i just gotten myself into..

going to fly away from the city for a week
going to the east for the first time.. well, second actually
going to 'conquer' the mount
going to 'conquer' the skill of rafting
going to eat rare weird food

..

going to add my list of places been
going to torture my muscles and bones
going to burn my already dark tanned skin
going to test the optimistic side of me
going to try to be adventures

..

what have i gotten myself into this time.. any advice?

[ will be away for a week to east malaysia, kota kinabalu.. yippies + gulp ]

free..?

nothing's free..!
nothing's free..?
yea.. nothing's free..!
not at all..?
everything has a price to pay
or at least a catch to it.
then what does 'F.O.C' means..?
thats old stuff, unwanted, useless
there's nothing free in this world


a free biscuit given to you..?
thats for try out
a free meal given to you..?
thats for an occasion
a free ride given to you..?
thats for helping others
a present given to you..?
thats for birthdays
a free money vaucher given to you..?
thats donation but will still take it
a free blank cheque given to you..?
thats a bounched cheque or some hidden agenda
a free advice given to you..?
thats for guidance
a free passport to heaven given to you..?
thats pure crap and impossible
there's nothing free in this world
nothing's free..!


[ blurred post thoughts ]

i overheard my colleague talking about a scam he encountered in one of the mall's carpark, where he was given free gifts and well, it was a scam la. then they were talking on how there's no such thing as free things.

it got me to realise.. how to tell someone of the salvation in a world where the word 'free' is actually 'NOT free? what happened to the price that was paid for us by His blood for us for us to have a 'free' access to heaven..? would anyone believe in 'free' again..?

nothing's free..?

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

missed calls

[ was reading some blogs and well, just thought of some stuff.. in the midst of my work time. girls are multitasking..! dont argue.. *grin* ;o) ]

will we still be talking when we've lost it?
will we still keep in touch when its over?
will we still think of each other when its gone?
will we still do what we used to do.. together?


you can either inteprete that short stanza as a(n)..

love relationship breakup effects
it is only natural that it happens. i mean, 2 person together sharing everything together, all the talks and feeling they shared together and when its over *snap* everything else also ends. communication stops.. thoughts, action are 'supposely' to be forgotten and not-to-talk-about. i guess its what some would call it - healing moment. to heal from the hurt and pain..
but like what yasmin ahmad's tagline options - does friendship ends when love begins? when the love is over.. is the friendship over too..? how does it take to heal from dissapointments?

friendship forever - only if you online and stay nearby
i remember how i used to deco autograph books for my close friends in high school and we shared the best time together. cycling around and just hanging out together. but as the years goes by and everyone moved to different places, its hard to keep in touch with anyone. well, not unless you've got the internet but even so, not everyone goes online at the same time. and with new people that comes into our lives and the time spent together.. the older friends are sometimes forgotten.
i'm sure not fully forgotten but just left as memories. and when we 'try' to make an effort to meet up.. usually doesnt work.
i had the same conversation with my dahling hsemate and she was saying how ppl talk more online and just because others dont have internet, the friendship is not as strong as those who online. well, even though i'm on y!, msn and gtalk.. i hardly talk to everyone. makes no diff.
should i then delete their numbers from my mobile and just maintain them online?

unanswered cries
to God, that is. sometimes we just want to hear an audible voice, a confirmation, an affirmation. but when nothing is heard and nothing is done or the storms in life gets tougher.. thats when we blow up, leaving everything behind and doing things our way. and that [ possibly ] can backslide anyone easily.. well, yea.. many times we would say or sing that we will trust in Him, having Him as our desire.. a typical Christian answer la.. but when it really happens, will we start to move with the wave?

well, maybe not everyone goes thru this but i do with additional assumptions..

relationships - family, friends, loved ones, strangers - are important and clearly, the effect of it if it doesnt work out can be massive. there can be total silence between each other. like kids, we would be nice to the person but as soon as (s)he does something that you're not happy, we say 'i hate you'.. either verbally or quietly.

i guess, thats why God so wants to have the relationship with His children. but if the child wants to rebel towards God, then the relationship is jeopordized.. we jeopardized that relationship unintentionally. communication is just as important in a relationship.

then it brings to another conclusion.. it shows that friendship, relationship can be temporal.. and might not last long. what more if we only met that person once or if we will never meet the person anymore.

what impression are we leaving behind to everyone we meet and say goodbye..?

IMPACT..! what can one life do..?

[ tudiah.. chimness.. this is what happens when i finally got my timeout session. ]
song in head : dont know why - norah jones