BIG - Pt 2

the biggest part of our body - our flesh.

and its the biggest challenge for me..

sigh..

but anyhow, i shall kill it! before it kills me!!

no i'm not trying to burn my skin or flesh, lest i become bbq pork.

a continuation from my previous post, the 90 days fast - to which i still donno what i got myself into, my most precious thing.. my morning sleep. and most of the time, my flesh kills me first.

some may have no problem waking up in the morning and all - but i have major problem waking early if its not to the last spare minute i can indulge into my sleep.

i'm already convicted that devotion should be done in the morning - especially now with 'Give Me 40 Days' book.. i'm even more convicted. but *ARGH*;^%$#$#%$^;^*

*ahem*

but just as Christ has said it

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. "Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?" he asked Peter. "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."
Matthew 26: 40-41

lets keep to that advice.. we have gotta force ourselves to endure it.. even though many times we have no clue whats happening and what is actually going on.

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Cor 4:16-18

so, just a random - no-to-sure - post this is, but something random which i hope it inspired you.. :)

BIG

its been a very logn while since i actually talked something really deep.. not that i'm not capable of making others really confused with my words.. but yea, something deep..

today's the 14 of July - abt 1 month since i had an msn conversation with cissie on the topic we were suppose to read on jaeson ma.. what started as "did you know he's only 28..? *biggrin*" to end with a bigger commitment.. a 90-day fast.

the part that really triggered the entire conversation was that jaeson was really passionate to see college students not ashame of God. he wasnt so he didnt know what would the rest be. well, he fasted and prayed and *boom* he had a revival in his college of 2000 ppl! but the thing abt what he said was.. he wasnt satisfied with it. he wanted more! gila greedy..! but its what i want to be able to say that too! then of cuz he started praying even more for them and more accepted.

the thing abt it is, i admit and this is my point of view, is that the word revival doesnt quite exist anymore. its more like Martin Luther King's time or the great older dudes rallying the revival where the year at 1900s. not in this millenium.. but i was proven its not true. revival can still happen now. where am i in part of that revival? i havent a clue.. but i want to be part of it!

i want...

we've also heard of Louie Giglio and his Passion rally thats happening around the world. his videos shows the college people being part of it and committing themselves once again to Him. I guess, it isnt coincident that all these is happening now - this year - this country of MALAYSIA! i'm praying for a revival of the young generation to happen in Malaysia.

cissie and i were talking as to how we all pray abt revival happen but never seem to happen or that our fire in us doesnt last as long. thats why, we have decided to have to fast 90 days..

why on earth 90 days..?

uz that the 3 months challenge. lindy mentioned to us that many times whatever we do, never last longer than 3 months - some even before the month ends, whatever we want to do dies away and we're back to our old self. when i asked cissie how long should we fast, i was thinking.. "3 months? hmm.. shall not be too adventureous or i might just get into bigger trouble"
but she said "3 months!" *gulp*

so yes..i've gotten into a way bigger commitment now.. my fast? my morning sleep..! i would sleep to the last minute to get up and when i do.. forget abt quiet time and morning devotion - i'm late for work! its really not as easy as it is.. i still love my sleep.. :( i'm trying.. really hard!

cliche as is sounds.. and very typical "Christian" talk.. but hey, is it wrong for me to say it? i know the greater challenge is that to maintain that passion and what happens after the revival? i havent a clue whats going to happen.. heck, i havent a clue what happens after this year.. but still, will you rally together with us..?

lets pray for the next Malaysian, this generation of youth, this generation that would be ashamed of God. He's to great to hide

My Dad's BIG..




[ notes: this is only part 1 of what i want to say.. more to come! ]

hahaha