my first time

i guess its true that there's a first time to something.

first time the opposition won quite a big share in recent election.
first time many other countries having their elections.
first time America have a different look of the candidates running for presidential.

but for me..

my first time attending a chinese morning session wedding (fetch the bride).
my first time witnessing the whole ceremony.
my first time being the driver for the married couple.
my first time photo-sitting James' camera overnight.
my first time taking wedding photos.

i like it.

despite the election news, hoo-haas thats happening, the wedding made it far more interesting and joyful. it is afterall a happy occasion.

anyway, here are some of my photos that i took of my first time.

ps.. btw.. still not my first time voting yet.. hehe

another one goes

keong hee!

[ picture taken: gunung jerai, kedah ]

Keong Hee Huat Chye..!

i just love saying that in hokkien instead. for some reason, its easier to pronounce or sound more.. chinesee.

anyway, chinese new year has always been a big festival here in my little town. to the extend where the malls are actually closed for a day at least. smaller shops closes for longer days.

although, like every other year, there's..

1. traffic jam going back to hometowns
2. cars from every big city appears in the smaller town
3. traffic jam in the small town
4. traffic jam going back to the city

*sigh* isnt festive season the greatest after all.. :D

there's also the gathering of the family from almost everywhere. its kinda like once a year gathering and its also like the only way the younger generations meet with the other younger generation with hope that we'll continue to tradition of meeting each other - at least to my case.

and as always, since it happened two years ago, it is still happening.. this time a bit more.
"nahh.. this year i give you ang pow, next year you better give me back liao ar.." says an aunt whose kid is married with 1 kid already.

i think i'm "enjoying" my new year more each year..


oh well.. KEONG HEE HUAT CHYE!

i guess it is about time..

for some updates.. :)







how's your year been.. or rather, how's your 41 days of 2008 been?


i think i should really get photoshop soon.. but at the mean time.. allow me to show off some pics from my SonyEricsson's camera phone.. hahaha

i had to use it cuz my camera ran out of battery..

song in head: always on your side - sheryl crow & sting

the end is coming..

.. for the new beginning to begin.

song in head: next year, baby - jamie cullum

Next year, things are gonna change
Gonna drink less beer, and start all over again
Gonna read more books, gonna keep up with the news
Gonna learn how to cook, spend less money on shoes
I’ll pay my bills on time,and file my mail away, everyday
Only drink the finest wine,and call my Gran every Sunday

Resolutions, baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things? The answers probably no
If there’s one thing I must do, despite my greatest fears
I’m gonna say to you, I felt all of these years
Next Year
Next Year

I’m gonna tell you how I feel
I‘m gonna tell you how I feel

Resolutions, baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things? The answers probably no
If there’s one thing I must do, despite my greatest fears
I’m gonna say to you, I felt all of these years
Next Year
Next Year

sigh.. has it really been that long ago? lets hope that next year would be a good year :)

shh..

i just watched 'enchanted' in the cinema with some friends, and i must say, its a nice show. its been awhile since i last watched a disney movie and like most disney movie, it normally leaves the girl wishing upon a star and all in the fantasy mood.

well, maybe just me. :) but really, its a nice show.

there is one part in the show when Pip, the chipmunk suddenly realized that he cant talk. and he had to converse in chipmunk language. and had to mime out in order to get the message across. then in the end, he wrote a book 'when silence is not golden' - or something like that.

when do we keep silent?
when do we speak out?

yes, i know there is a time for everything under the sun. and to be wise to know when to say when you need too.

but there are so much time that i wish that i could just speak my mind out. to just speak what i really have in mind. to speak out what i feel and my think and what i want to know. to really know what others think.

then again, the question that stops me would be, 'it is worth speaking it out?' 'is it beneficial?'

one time there were two friends that were really close to each other. the time that they spend with each other was more than just having fun. they hang out so much that they were comfortable with each other. like most other friends, they started sharing with each other their problems, their thoughts and their opinion. and like most close friends, they would only speak to each other their thoughts that most other friends would not know about. it was more than in-depth conversation.

one day, when one of the friend was sent away to another town, the friendship between these two friends began to fade. they met new friends, they met new interest in life. they lived separate lives. when they met again after awhile, there was the awkwardness between each other. they tried to talk again like how it used to be, but it only stayed surfacial.

both had lived a separate lives. but both knew each other's thoughts. both knew what they used to say to each other. about each other. the promises they made towards each other that never achieved.

the price is paid when too much is said, i guess. you're already like in a fear factor show by speaking out your thoughts or your feeling to someone. its a risk. well, its the faith and trust that you have towards someone that only you are willing to pour out everything or some secret. right?

what about the silent treatment?

i know that girls are usually known for using that weapon next to the crying. hahaha.. proud to be one! just kidding.. :) guys are learning that trick too. anyways, what about not speaking it out. not saying it out what you have in mind. not saying out what you want to say. the risk is there too. either you end up eating yourself up or eating someone else because of silence.

so, it is 'speak now or forever hold your peace' or 'silence is golden'?


'a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak' ~ king solomon, ecc 3:7



song in head: big girls dont cry - fergie

it wasnt me

yes yes.. its been a very long time since i updated anything here. but seriously, its not my fault..

not my fault that i have quite alot of things to learn at work

not my fault that i have not much energy after work to go online

not my fault that i see this everyday when i can go online..

hehehe.. i have been blocked by super alot of websites at my client's place... cuz i'm suppose to be.. well, working.

anyway, if many that do not know.. i have changed job after 3 1/2 yrs there. i miss the people the environment. but, i guess i just have to move on. i still miss them.

but, in the new place - its been good. and crazy! well, i'm suppose to be at client site most of the time, so i hardly meet the rest of the colleagues. but we've heard abt each other. but still, my seniors that i meet everyday at work - they're crazily amazing. :)

since i have been blocked by SOOOOO many websites lately, when i can finally go online.. here's what i found out:

1. too many unread blogs

2. dont remember my password to friendster

3. dont recall all the new faces in my 'friends' list

4. found out most of them got married! [ whatever happened to 'hi, here's my bf/gf' ]

5. dont remember how to move around friendster

6. dont remmeber how to see MY own profile

7. everyone's on facebook pulak

8. everyone's asking me to join facebook in ALL my email accounts

9. what IS facebook..!?

10. forget to check out those unread blogs by then

sigh.. too many things at one time.. stress, man. hahaha..

yes, i havent join facebook.. YET

have some patience, ya *wink*

song in head: call me irresponsible - michael buble

a quarter

yes.. finally reached a quarter..

still feeling good and happy.. and the same.



darn casino guards.. still want to check my IC .. (-_-)



song in head: i choose - india arie

ehwoo!

[ a picture i took in pekan, kuantan using jon's camera. one of native kids there. ]

i donno about you but i'm loving this picture alot! makes me want to have the same expression as the kid.. maybe minus the snort-fluid.. hehe

anyway, october is here! soon will be november then 'jingle bells, jingle bells.. jingle all the way' ahh~ i'm loving it

:)

song in head : aku cinta padamu - sheila majid

* dum dee dum dumm.. *

too many times i have tried to update the blog, tell of my thoughts.
too many times i get caught up with other things.. events.. people.
too many times i neglect some stuffs thats closest to me
until its too late.

i'm trying

yes..i'm still alive and very much well. a few events had happend. some good and some bad. anyhow, i'm thanking God for what has happend. it is kinda amazing how sometimes simple events - that sometimes doesnt interest others - means the most to us. it is afterall a personal encounter.

no worries, i'm not trying to sound too deep - altho, my dahling housemate always think i am. maybe its my superpower.. fuh~ too much of Heroes. hehe..

i did have a few things in my mind that i have been wanting to tell it out but so far, with the time that i have, i will try. lets just hope it's soon.

at the mean time, i'd like to hear from you. tell me what has happened since you last visited here. its been awhile, dont you think? :)

coffee?

drum rolls, please

i know nothing about drums or any musical instruments but hey, at least i know how to enjoy music.

in conjunction with our country's 50th year of independence, almost every event thats happening has "50" in it.

drummerforchrist will be having a big thing going on. they'll be playing the drums for 50 hours - non stop! and not just one of them.. a few..! talk about being loud.. starting on the 31st August at Sungai Wang.

if you play drums - go join in..!! it'll be great. they're attempt is to put a name in the Malaysians Book of Records..! imagine.. you're part of that big event. dont wait till malaysia is celebrating its 100th year instead. haha..

i'm not sure if a specific theme is required or you can just simply whack but just go for it!

like i said, i dont play any musical instruments at all, but i'll drop by. a few peeps would be playing too.. Altered Frequence, 1am, Unbashed.. John Thomas, Arthur Kam.. [ ok, i admit.. i only know 3 of the names mentioned ]

so.. ready for the drum rolls? ;o)

my wish list

suddenly.. i just thought of listing it again so, i thought of adding to the list.

probably i'm just bored, or i'm extremely broke. but why is it that when you're broke is when you want alot of things as well. well, at least its motivating me a bit. hahaha..

in random order, i want..

1. canon 350d
2. 120Gb notebook
3. cd player for my car
4. ipod nano - cant believe now i feel like wanting it when i used to say this is an anti-sosial device.
5. trench coat
6. maybe a new cupboard
7. a getaway and do absolutely nothing
8. a nice chat over coffee with friends
9. play tennis again
10. have my 3rd piercing
11. go to rain forrest festival
12. scuba dive in labuan - or somewhere there

again.. whether i achieve it this time or not is another issue. for now, i'll just need to make sure i have the cash for it and complete my work before seeing my client later! sigh..

oh.. an interesting combination - jazz meets vocal

song in head: everything - michael buble

hmm..

Useless fact of the day:

50,000 of the cells in your body will die and be replaced with new cells all while you have been reading this sentence‎.


[ updates later.. too sleepy to post something longer ]

a sympathy?

disclaimer : what is posted below is purely my thoughts and my assumptions.

i'm not too sure if he needs to be sympatized or not. but then again, story has it that he was a betrayer, a back-stabber, the one doomed to be destroyed. he was also the one that needs to carry out the 'duty' in order the prophecy may be fulfill.

he is judas iscariot.

i had the discussion the other day with some of my girlfriends while discussing about this portion. he was a tax-collector. he loves money. he brought the pharisees to Jesus and thus, Jesus was caught, cruxified, etc. judas on the other had, got the money that he wanted - 30 silver coins.

so, up to that part, we know that he was the bad guy.

but if we read in Matthew 27, we read that he said 'i have sinned for i have betrayed innocent blood.' and he hangs himself. in the movie 'the passion', they potrayed judas being disturbed by all the little devils and all. well, who wouldnt be in sound mind after realizing that he just betrayed the Son of God.

my conclusion about judas was, what he did is probably no different from what peter did. peter denied Jesus 3 times. [ matthew 10: 32-33 "Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven. But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven. ] but what made peter one of the great apostles after that was, he repented before God after he realized it. judas continued in his wallow-pity-party.

so, that was my conclusion - God is a God of second chances. and that if we repent of our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive them.

but now.. my second thoughts is this verse. "While I was with them, I protected them and kept them safe by that name you gave me. None has been lost except the one doomed to destruction so that Scripture would be fulfilled." [ John 17: 12 ]

kinda like.. Jesus knew that judas is going to destruction (ie Hell) even before judas met Him. meaning, he is seriously, bound to destruction.

well, i'm sure there's a reason why he chose judas to be his disciple. i mean, his 12 disciple out of the many thousand people that Jesus could have chose. why did Jesus picked him and yet knew that he is going to be destructed.

at first i though that maybe, Jesus picked him cuz He knew that judas was weak - as in his temptation to money. so, probably Jesus picked him, trained and guided him be stronger when tempted. but.. 'except the one doomed to destruction'.

ultimately.. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

[ coffeexified ]

why is it that sometimes we want to do what is wrong when we already know its wrong..? or is it just me..?

unintentional

unintentionally i took 1 whole month off from blogging. now i have 1 missing month in my archive. sigh

seriously unintentional.

[ coffeexified ]

i just thought i'd put up a pic.. something i saw from somewhere, decided to try out myself, learn photoshop [ thank you!! ] and voila.. what do you think? :D

what has happend to me.. well..

1. still cyber-coffeexified at starbucks.
but this time is really for work. sadness. i can be at starbucks really doing work. either that, or i have really lost my focus on what i'm suppose to do. it that time of the season when you've got something to do and more keeps coming. i've already got alot of overdue work and still in the midst of working on them. is time ever enough? of cuz not, thats what i'll say but i'll just submit to time.

2. change of style. still in the process.
no specific reason why i changed style. i just wanted to try something i've been wanting to try for the longest time - short hair. out of it, i've gotten some pretty funny responses:

you look younger! - thats what they tell me when i had longer hair.
you look more lady-like la.. - shorter hair, more lady-like, longer hair, more *what*..?!?
you look fresher.. - i must have been a walking corpse before this.
you just broke-up kah? - this was the ultimate. my friend asked me that cuz she said usually when someone cut her hair short is cuz she just broke up. the only break-up i had was with bank account - temporarily only *grin*

3. the big bang.
yes, my poor blue baby had an accident. shall not get into the mood of arguing whose fault but yes, i knock the person. i had to pay the bigger damage while the uncle's car only had a broken light. well, my poor blue baby had to be in the 'hospital' for a couple of days. i was immobile for awhile and i have forgotten how it feels like to take the train during peak hours. and the wonders of ppl i see on the train. anyway, the big bang kinda blew up all the other worries i have been having the past few days. all the work load, worries of other stuffs. so, the bang made me just chill off again.

4. relief.
in a few months, i'll tell you my big relief. but anyway, ever since i chilled out from my big bang, i manage to re-align myself abit more. think a bit more sensible. made a few friends with the mechanics, too. hahaha. but yea, one load off me. praise God for that.

5. off again!
if i dont blog for the next few days or weeks is cuz i'm still tied up at work.. before i go off to Bangkok for a few days holiday! ahhaha.. when i'm back, its crazy workload again. hopefully i can upload some pics.

[ coffeexified ]

i just met a self-claimed player. not too sure how to respond.

song in head : sweet escape - gwen stefani feat akon

i'm caught

i am at starbucks now.. with my freaking notebook.. doing work, reading blogs, replying emails. what happened to just enjoy my coffee, timeOut, read a physical book?!

must be the revelation i had that i could online there.

argh! what happened!?

[ here's the story ]

i'm at this starbucks after work to get my mails cuz i was in the client's place the whole day. and i need to get some stuff settled before the next day. then as usual, got my coffee, on-ed my notebook and started doing my work. everyone around me also got their notebook on - for work, for discussion, for presentation, for surfing.

one adult came to starbucks - with his coffee and donut. looked around for a place to sit. twitched his mouth cuz there werent any clean table. then he found one. in the midst of all the other table that has notebook on it. i was one of them. he looked around. took a bite of his donut. looked around again as though he was lost in the techie world. finished his food, drank his drink. looked around again - thinking, whats happening. sip again, and another sip. looked around really lost in the crowd. then walked away.

got me to think. am i like the rest or am i like him. do i want to be like the rest or like him. enjoy the time without technology.

i used to wonder how can someone enjoy starbucks and notebook. what a contrary. until i started myself. on the notebook. talking to ppl virtually and not physically. doing my own stuff.

what has become of me..!?

i'm losing my mind.. soon

song in head : wake me up when september ends - greenday

the little things

sometimes, its just the little things..

the smell of freshly baked pastries
the smell of coffee in the morning
email from awaiting person arrives
a short sweet suprise message
an old person in mcd having breakfast
elderly couple holding hands - interlocked
a funny remark in the middle of work
small suprises

that makes you smile. and makes your day.

oh.. another..

just a smile - does the trick too ;o)


song in head : overjoyed - jennifer hudson

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what do you guys think about it? ;o)

the toy

little tim saw on the tv a rider on a bike. he said thats they best thing and he wanted a rider on a bike toy. then one day, his mom brought him to the mall and there, at the far end, little tim got attracted one corner. he quickly ran to the corner and he saw what he wanted - a rider on a bike plastic toy. thats the exact one that i want to have, thought little tim. he wanted it so badly, he asked his mom hoping that she would buy it for him. it was a few dollars, so she agreed to get it.

on christmas morning, like how every little children in the world would rush down to the christmas tree to find their presents, little tim rushed as fast as he could to be the first to open. he found his present and he opened it. it was the exact rider on the bike plastic toy that little tim wanted from the mall he saw the other day. he was jumping up and down, smiling from ear to ear, playing with it as though it was really racing around the house. that was the best present that he has gotten that year.

his older brother, john, went towards him, grabbed the toy from him. looking, inspecting and shaking little tim's precious toy. he pushed the toy back to little tim saying, 'silly you', with a dissapointed tone. 'mom wanted to get you a bigger and better rider toy. but since you insisted that you wanted this silly plastic toy, you've missed out the better one.'

[ story told by my mum.. to ponder. ]

"The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters.." psalms 23

whats next?

ever had the feeling that you want to do something but at the same time, donno what to do, how to do but just want to do something?

ever wonder how you can show your mood over just chatting online?

c : how come u like no mood wan?
f : how you know?
c : donno wor.. u sad kah?
f : eh, got alot of work to do, donno which one to do lor.. what you think?
c : i thought u sad... because... u r put into a situation that u don't want... which no one to help or guide... everyone not caring for each other... don't know what happening... no direction... don;t know what to do... want to go but cannot...
c : ada betul ah !!

either my friend knows me really well or it really obvious that i am confused. but anyways, yes.. i am in that position.

sometimes i want to know whats happening, what to anticipate. sometimes i like suprises.

sometimes i think i confuse myself more than i confuse others.

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. " Phil 4:6


update : it wasnt that 'time of the month'.. hahaha.. a friend just asked me. and before everyone else does., i tot i'll say it first. :o)


song in head : september - earth, wind & fire