blurred about life"s simple complexities

Thursday, May 25, 2006

animal planet

ever wonder whats the difference between a lamb and a sheep? and whats the significance these animals are mentioned? along together with goat and ram?
well, i guess not EVERY single things in the bible are to be interpreted literally but just wonder.. whats the difference..

i looked up the dictionary and here are some of the definition:
lamb - young of the sheep, innocent mild-mannered person; dear person; without resistance or protest
sheep - grass eating animal kept for its flesh as food - mutton - and its wool, (and interestingly.. the dictionary quotes this) separate good and bad person -> Matthew 25:33 (as to differ from sheep and goats)

so.. lamb is the young of the sheep (clear enough). blurpoint 1#: when Jesus said, '.. i know my sheep and my sheep know me (john 10:14)'.. what about the lamb? does it mean that only the sheep - ie, a matured christian - can hear and know Jesus? well, in a way it does makes some sense cuz (my thinking, my thoughts, my intepretation) only when you're older that you can discern and identify with a familar voice. for example, a babe may respond to anyone that calls their name while an older child can recognize better their parent's voice.

it is also mentioned in john 21:15-18, when Jesus resurrected and talked to peter. He said in order.. 'feed my lambs - v15', 'take care of my sheep - v16' and 'feed my sheep - v17'.
Jesus mentioned about the lamb first then the sheep twice.. so, to my understanding.. its, we should guide the young christians, take care and guide the matured christians well.. and only a matured christian can help other matured christian.. right? and we need to be matured christian - hebrew 5:12-14.

then another question: why is Jesus mentioned as the Lamb of God..? why lamb and not sheep? well, this is when i think the second definition of lamb is more appropriate. not that Jesus is young lad (heck, he is most matured compared to anyone of us!) but because of his 'innocent mild-mannered person; dear person; without resistance or protest' character that he carried even to calvary. hmm.. then no wonder lambs are usually used for sacrifice.

hmm.. then, what does this verse mean? Isaiah 5:16-17

But the LORD Almighty will be exalted by his justice,
and the holy God will show himself holy by his righteousness.
Then sheep will graze as in their own pasture;
lambs will feed among the ruins of the rich.


blurpoint: the sheep (meaning matured christians?) will have their own property and the lamb (meaning younger christians?) will have to settle for what the rich dont want?

ps: sometimes i tend to ask questions and answer it myself or cause others to be blur with me.. hahaha.. no doubt why i'm blurred most of the time.. hahaha ;o)

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Dear God

Dear God Dad..

i prefer to call You 'Dad' instead. closer feeling and more personal. well, you are my Dad afterall and since i'm your child, i guess you would have known me inside out. but anyway, i just though i'll write you a letter to you.. been ages since i last wrote one anyway. i think it was.. first year in college? never gotten the chance to post it.. its still lying in my drawer (somewhere).

anyway, how are you Dad? hows things over there? are the angels singing and rejoicing more than last time or have they lost the chance to sing cuz the people here are all confused. there's so many things happening here that people are asking more questions about you, Dad. media's been showing some news and shows that attracts them than to the church. well, i've read some of the books and its really very interesting. are those creativity from you, too..? well, i guess you do have you ways to train us to be stronger, right? i just hope some dont drop-out from the training but to continue to persevere.

sometimes i guess holding on can be a tough thing to do and to last long. i know how it feels when i was hiking up raub last weekend. gosh, i so wanted to give and screamed cuz the path was so narrow and i keep slipping down and the journey seemed endless.. but with a push from the back and a pull from the front of me, they've definitely helped me through.. really. and when i reached the top with the rest of the team.. it was just that sense of.. achievement.. i guess thats why you said 'Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work'. hmm.. so, that is why Jesus did called his disciples to go out in pairs to spread the news, too.. right, Dad? well, then.. i'm grateful for all the people that you have introduced in my life. somehow, one way or another, they've helped me with a push and a pull.. (hey guys, thanx for everything.. appreciate you guys tonnes!).. ;o)

Dad.. is it hard for you to make decisions? i mean..well, more like i wonder.. do you have to make decisions up there. i guess you have too, huh.. most obviously harder than mine. recently i've got to make some decisions that i dont know what to do. i dont know what choice to make. sometimes, i wish you would just zap me to somewhere.. hahaha.. well, then i would be like jonah.. i dont think i want to smell fishy. well, i'm trusting you with it, then.. help me, Dad.. i really need your help. thanx, Dad.. :D

the sunset is coming, Dad.. so it means, the day is almost over. it was great spending time with you.. well, writing to you, to be specific.. :) thank you for listening.

i love you, Dad..

your blurred kid,
- eshnah - ;o)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

interesting facts 3# - comparison

an email from a friend..

IN PRISON - you spend the majority of your time in an 8X10 cell.
AT WORK - you spend most of your time in a 6X8 cubicle.

IN PRISON - you get three meals a day (free).
AT WORK - you only get a break for one meal and you have to pay for it yourself.

IN PRISON - you get time off for good behavior.
AT WORK - you get rewarded for good behavior with more WORK.

IN PRISON - a guard locks and unlocks the doors for you.
AT WORK - you must carry around a security card and unlock open all the doors yourself.

IN PRISON - you can watch TV and play games.
AT WORK - you get fired for watching TV and playing games.

IN PRISON - you get your own toilet.
AT WORK - you have to share.

IN PRISON - they allow your family and friends to visit.
AT WORK - you can not even speak to your family and friends.

IN PRISON - all expenses are paid by taxpayers with no work at all.
AT WORK - you get to pay all the expenses to go to work and then they deduct taxes from your salary to pay for the prisoners.

IN PRISON - you spend most of your life looking through the bars from the inside wanting to get out.
AT WORK - you spend most of your time wanting to get out and go inside bars.

Humm? Which Sounds Better?

i think i still prefer work.. at least i get paid to do work.. ;o)

Thursday, May 11, 2006

blurred esh turns 1


just realised when i was looking for an old post and i just realised.. i started blogging last year may..! so, i blog is actually 1 year old as at 12 may! (as of tomorrow-la)

interesting how times flies now.. hahaa.. just when i keep thinking 'what to blog' or 'when on earth can i find time to blog'.. i've turned one! hmm.. not sure if thats a good thing or not, now..

but anyhow, i've had the joy of blogging.. people discovering me from my blog, people finding my blog, me telling things thats in my head but that i think its fun to crap about.. hahaha..it a joy ;o)

how am i celebrating my one year of blogging.. havent a clue yet (sadly).. any ideas?

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

blurred facts : #1

i is love to talk and people actually gets blur when i is talking.


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just thought i start something like this. just some random stuff about me that some may know or may not know about me.. no worries.. they're all good... well, to me la.. haha..

Friday, May 05, 2006

can i..

you know, when you're not suppose to do something and yet, all the more you want to do it.
or rather..
when you're sick and you're not suppose to eat some stuff and yet, all the more you crave to eat it.

i'm not sure if that happens to you but it happens to me all the time.. like now.
i was back to my little kampung for about a week and it was just great time relaxing and lazing around.. hey, i needed a break after the late night working for over a week.. haha.. well, was back home, watching extremely alot of tv, sleeping alot and eating alot too! had some food that i've been wanting to have for the longest time too.

then.. it ended. i'm now back at work and again, my calendar is filled with all the due dates i need to complete my work. and to add to it, my voice is slowly cracking off. its like, it finally wants to have its break, too! drinking loads of water now but at the same time, me is feeling like eating spicy food and chocolates.. yumms.. *grinning*

why do we do that? i mean.. why do we sometimes want something that we know its not good. *blurred*

during my 1 week break, i've been watching Miami Ink. a show about 5 friends that opened a tattoo shop (these days, reality tv can be almost about anything!). and while i was watching it, gosh.. i wish i could have a tattoo, too.. a small abstract type. more people these days are getting tattoo, too.

well, biblically, we are not allowed to tattoo our body.. and i can agree if its those type of tattoo that are shape of skulls or some other images. but what if someone has a tattoo of a cross? or what if those old military time, (assumption) that they had to tattoo their id to identify themselves, are they considered breaking the bible..?


i guess.. this page answered my questions.. *grin*